The word for the day is selfishness. It would be normal to associate selfishness with someone not sharing. A child not sharing his toys with others or wanting to keep everything to themselves would be an example.
I was listening to a radio station pastor/preacher who was speaking about how being selfish also can mean that you are in a place where God is trying to get you to recognize that He is asking you to step out from your comfortable place.
When it comes to church at times we wonder why we are stagnant or feel like we are doing the same thing week after week. Going to church. Attending Sunday classes. Listening to the sermon. Then greeting a few people each week. Then get in our cars and leave. Then wait for next week to do the same thing over again. Maybe we have served in some area of the church at a particular time but that was all that was needed at that moment for you to do. So it’s not that you haven’t helped out when you were available, but it was not a consistent involvement required of you.
In the past this amount of participation was okay for you and no one really said anything to you that would suggest that this was an issue. You have attended countless church bible studies and sermons over the years. Been to church retreats and have an ongoing prayer life and fellowship with church members and yet you are not on fire like you once were back when. Now you are beginning to feel that something has changed. Because Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8), you begin to think something must be wrong with me.
There isn’t anything necessarily wrong with you. The fact is you have not changed your routine. It is time for further transformation in Christ (Romans 12:2). We should be Spiritually growing and maturing. For years you sat and listened to others teaching the Gospel. You study on your own and feed on the Word as if your life depended on it. Which it does. You forgot that now there is an expectation for you to disciple someone else (Matthew 28:19-20).
Could that be why you are not comfortable sitting in your seat any longer? Because it is time to get up and begin to tell others about what you have learned about the Good News. Tell others why you can’t wait to get to church and how they can have a relationship with Christ as well. It is not too late. Think of where you can see yourself helping out and start there. If you listen closely the Holy Spirit will direct you (Proverbs 3:5-6).
Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God. Hebrews 13:16